Poor Me

I'm so tired of feeling that way. I come down in the morning and am instantly disgusted with the condition of the house. Well, HELLO, I did go to bed leaving it that way! I know what I need to do: put away as I go so it doesn't become monumental, and then take just 15 minutes max. to clean up. I know what to do. Why don't I do it?!!! The nights that I do it I wake up feeling great. I truly think of it as a present to my future self, and what a present it is!

Last night DH and I were busy getting presents ready for him to bring to school today (his last day before vacation). We worked too late, so when we were done we didn't have the energy to clean up completely. It was just dumb! If I had just cleaned up completely from dinner BEFORE running out to pick up some things we needed it would have been done. So frustrating.

I want to just pack up EVERYTHING in the house and start over. Does that make sense? I'm not saying I want new furniture (though I wouldn't complain) just a way to deal with the crap that spreads out and expands like the oil leaking from under my washing machine.

Okay. Enough of that. Really trying to stay on top of feelings of being overwhelmed this week, because it's a real slippery slope for me.

Isn't it amazing how, as a parent, you are able to classify the various kinds of throw up? There's the bad kind - the stomach bug - and then there's the other kinds: B coughed a little too hard as I was picking him up from preschool yesterday - WHOOPS! J put too much food in her mouth last night at dinner - WHOOPS! By the way, anyone have any strategies for cleaning vomit off of leather sneakers? Will I ruin them if I toss them in the washing machine?

Looking at the holidays quickly approaching, I'm happy to say that I did better this year in preparing than I did last year. I'm still not where I wanted to be, but not bad. Last year (and many years before) DH and I were both up very late the night before we were to leave for his parents' house for Christmas finishing presents. This year, while I didn't make my December 1st deadline (though that would have been so NICE!), I am 90% finished. I have to make some more cookie jars (gotta love those S'mores in a Jar), some more cookies (hmmm...S'mores sound pretty good), and finishing painting an ornament for my father-in-law. We have a few more things to wrap, and that's it. It's do-able! :)

Alright, off to make lunches for the children running and bouncing off of the couch cushions. No one is crying yet, but since B is now calling in, "I'm okay, Mommy!" it's only a matter of time.