Friday, January 13, 2006

Further updates on my grandfather

My mom is probably in the air now flying to Florida to see her father. We all came close but have not actually said that she will be saying good-bye. She and her brother are in agreement that he should not be kept alive by tubes and such, and he wouldn't want to live in a diminished cognitive level. Can you imagine what it would be like to be alive for years without being able to communicate? They don't think that he will gain back his lost language. Apparently when he had the heart attack yesterday morning, his brain was deprived of oxygen for a long time.

We're telling DS to cross her legs for now. She has her weekly midwife appointment today. She had been planning to have them sweep the membranes today (she's officially due tomorrow) to get things moving (it helped start my labor with J) but now doesn't even want them to do an internal. I'll be there to support her if labor starts, but we both want my mom to be there too. Mom revealed to me yesterday that she is always so fearful when one of us goes into labor since we know someone who died during childbirth. She loses sleep and has nightmares. So she REALLY wants to be there when DS gives birth - just in case.

DS and I are checking out a new preschool today after I drop the boys off at school. It's $140 a month PLUS they'll give me a sibling discount. I just hope it looks as good as it seems. Can't wait! Then I have a playgroup to go to with J, and then we'll take all the kids to McDonalds' for lunch. After naps we'll all go over my parents' to get things ready for Shabbat dinner.

I'm going to be a wreck every time the phone rings.

1 comment:

Anjali said...

Oh, Rachel, I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I went through something very similar with my father's father, who was in India at the time. I know how horribly anxious you must feel, particularly with the distance involved.